Melancholy Madness

Have you ever had a day when you just felt like doing nothing?
I've had an entire month like that.
It feels like the past month has just drifted by like the lyrics of a song you don't like.
Kinda like one of those, "what was that? Nevermind" type things.
It's weird too, because this month has been very eventful.
I've connected with people from my past that I thought were gone forever, I've accomplished a lot in my personal and professional life, I even got XM radio for my car.

Still, the funk of forty-thousand years is upon me.
Don't misunderstand me... I'm not in a depression... I'm more in a lull.
Like I'm waiting calmly for the other shoe to drop, but it's already dropped.

Weird huh?

I wish I could win the lotto. 200 Million dollars goes a long way... so I've been told.
I'd really enjoy being a millionaire. I'd help design a church that had room to grow. I'd put my dream of a "leg up" ministry to work.

I want to create a place where homeless & misfortunate people can come and live comfortably, learn a new trade, learn about community and God's love for them, and finally get all the skills they need to begin their new chapter in life.

Unfortunately, any attempt at something like this, without the proper funds, would just be another homeless shelter. I know that the shelters perform a service, but properly funded, they could do so much more.

I'd also get to go to Hawaii, Japan, and Europe.
I'd also be able to fund my video production business and make better movies than I'm making now.

Sorry. Not too funny or insightful... But that's how I feel right now.